on divinity

above all else, i am a child of gods. directly, my source spirit is a minor, unrecorded god, a duine sith wandering the mountains and dales of scotland. He holds dominion over the sun, travellers, seekers of answers, boundaries and transitions, alchemy, duality and transformation in general. to that end, He put me on this planet to fuck around and find out, literally: my purpose is to learn about the world, turn it around a bit, and see what happens.

beyond that, it gets a bit more complicated.

my source spirit Himself could perhaps be described as a particularly ambitious branch on the tree that is Netjer. the kemetic gods do not work like other gods. exploring my extended spiritual heritage, then, produces something that looks not so much like a typical family tree as one of those diagrams of how citrus species relate to each other. i see in my source spirit shades of Ra, of Horus, of Sobek, of Set, of Wepwawet. consequently, i see Them in myself.

i see in Him the sun. always the sun. i cannot stress how much the sun means to me, my self conception, and my spiritual practise. when i was confirmed into kemetic orthodoxy, and it was divined which gods were to step forward to work with me in this life, the head priest said "wow that's a lot of solar gods". at the height of summer, when here we never experience true night, i feel wired with a motor that will seemingly never run out of energy. in the midst of winter, when here the land is swallowed by darkness for all but a few hours each day, my body feels frail and my mind overstrung. my lifeforce is inimately connected to the cycles of the sun, because it's not just above me, it's inside of me.

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